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Hello and welcome to my blog full of nothingness. But there's still something for those who care about what's going through my mind. It may be a little bit too emo to some, but please bear with me, all right? I promise I won't be that emo... ;p.


The Girl
I'm currently doing my Diploma in Mass Communication in KDU (PJ). I'm Catholic, and I love Japanese animation and music. As for who I am, a lot of people have different views on this. I could be a bitch to some, and an angel to others. But regardless, I love you all (whether you want to believe me or not).


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Layout

Title: Written in the Stars
Featuring: Raven from RR Project
Lines: Ewan ko. Lol.
Made by: Miss Misfit
Coded by: Miss Misfit
Image by: Ravenskar
Used: Adobe Photoshop CS2
Created: June 10, 2006
Released: June 11, 2006
Colors: yellow, green, brown?
Credits: 1 2 3 4 5



Monday, June 05, 2006

No need to cry

My gosh... a whole month of not posting anything on this blog. What has become of me? Back when I was in High School, I made it a point to post at least once a week in this blog. Now?

Simple... I lost interest.

Not to say that I hate this blog, but rather I don't know what to put in here anymore. Believe me, in the past month, I have tried my best to come up with something worthy of putting up in this blog without offending anyone and without sounding too emo.

I'm a girl, whose college life sucks and is now handling problems ranging from family, education, relationships and also the need to understand who I really am. (Thus my last post on all the quizzes) How can I not sound emo? And it's not like anyone cares on what's going in my life anyway...

Yeah, I'm so wrong.

But the problem right now is that I'm not really honest to myself anymore. It's like, one minute I'll say, "I like cake" and then the next minute I'll be saying, "I've got to be kidding me... I hate cake! It makes me fat!" and then I go into a state of denial and never eat cake again, even though I do have a thing for them.

Why do I continue to lie to myself? Probably to ensure that I don't start crying out of nowhere again. Seriously, I don't know the amount of times I cried this past month. And it always happens whenever I'm face to face with my true self. It's not that I don't want to accept my true self, I'm more afraid really. I know life's supposed to change, but how can I change when the world isn't expecting me to?

But then again, why am I depending on the world?

Lord, give me a reason to be here. Tell me what to do... I don't want to be lost anymore, I don't want to be confused. I don't want to feel abandoned anymore, or alone. But if this is Your will, then so be it.

But isn't the pain enough? I don't seem to be getting better for some reason...

Darn, how I hate my emo-ness. Sadly, I have nothing creative or funny to share about my life anymore. Would've thought that after that fateful day of almost leaving the world that I'd treasure my life even more...

It takes a lot more than that, right?

Please pray for me. The days are getting harder and I need all the help I can get. I don't think I can stand another day of locking myself up in my room and crying my eyes out and choking on my tears.

I want to smile with all of you once more.

Take care and God bless.

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