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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Give me Novocaine

Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a kiss goodnight and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Jimmy says it's better than here,
I’ll tell you why

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming,
Give me a kiss goodnight and everything will be alright,
Tell me that I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine

Oh Novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling,
The sensations overwhelming
Give me a kiss goodnight and everything will be alright,
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing,
So give me Novacaine


I fought with my dad agin last Sunday, and this time I know I'm at fault. But what I couldn't stand was that my father couldn't stop shouting. I hated it when my father shouts, it makes me shout as well. And seeing as it was my bad mood that caused the trouble, him shouting at me was making my mood even worst than before.

And as I broke down and cried again, memories of the pain I experienced last year resurfaced. It really felt like nothing had changed, and that I wasn't stronger. And that I was just as weak, maybe weaker than before.

But unlike last year, where the pain would drag on for the rest of the week or longer, the pain ended in less than half a day. My mom talked to me, and she tried her very best to try to understand what I'm going through... (although in the end, she did most of the talking @_@). Although I was alone in college as usual and was used by someone who needed help in her project (luckily, I caught on when I noticed she just sat there watching me), the day turned out pretty ok.

The way I look at it, it looks like I don't hold on to my pain and sadness as long as I did last year. I know how to let it go, to let myself take another step forward and move on.

That life really is worth something after all.

Am just happy now. And don't worry about the song... that song comforted me while I was crying. ^^

Take care and God bless!

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