Saturday, September 11, 2004
Tadaimaaaaaaa!!!!!Yes, I'm back in the internet world!! And I am very, very glad... cause I was about to break as I was really, really depressed lately.
Anyway, I've been thinking about this lately. How me walking to tuition affecting other students/people who recognize me.
The first time was when I walked to tution... and Liyana and her mom saw me and decided to give me a ride.
"Why not you come to our house so we can send you whenever you go for tuition? Liyana also goes to tuition at this time," says Puan Zaharah.
And then, not long after that, Liyana comes up to tell me that she wants to walk with me to tuition as she had no transport.
And then there's Erli's mother. (Erli is Azween's friend and goes to the same tuition as me and Azween), who sees me about to cross the road and offers a lift.
"Awak selalu berjalan ke? Macam tu boleh tak awak berjalan dengan Erli minggu depan? Saya ada kursus jadi tak dapat hantar dia..." says her mother.
The next week, Elaine, my former Sunday School classmate and also goes to the same tuition (also same school, 5D) sees me with her mom and also offers a lift.
"If you want we can send you, you know," says Elaine's mother. "Just wait at the junction from USJ 13. Your mother allows you to walk? Elaine would never walk..."
I see a connection between these three mothers and when it comes to their daughters. In truth, these mothers send their children out of fear to the outside world. Rape, snatch thief etc. ... and they see me and think 'Wow, what a brave girl. Isn't she scared? Her mother must be very mean... why can't she send her?'
Often, I wonder if it was better if someone could send me. But I think of these mothers and wonder, "I gain nothing but stupid sympathy. Plus, I feel like they could use me just because I face these things and nothing has ever happened to me."
God bless. May you do well in your exams.
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