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Hello and welcome to my blog full of nothingness. But there's still something for those who care about what's going through my mind. It may be a little bit too emo to some, but please bear with me, all right? I promise I won't be that emo... ;p.


The Girl
I'm currently doing my Diploma in Mass Communication in KDU (PJ). I'm Catholic, and I love Japanese animation and music. As for who I am, a lot of people have different views on this. I could be a bitch to some, and an angel to others. But regardless, I love you all (whether you want to believe me or not).


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Shan
Anup
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Layout

Title: Written in the Stars
Featuring: Raven from RR Project
Lines: Ewan ko. Lol.
Made by: Miss Misfit
Coded by: Miss Misfit
Image by: Ravenskar
Used: Adobe Photoshop CS2
Created: June 10, 2006
Released: June 11, 2006
Colors: yellow, green, brown?
Credits: 1 2 3 4 5



Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Mune ippai no ai wo hoshizora ni chikau no

Often I wonder if I could handle my anger the right way, things would be so much better. But then again, I was not angry all the time. Just truly frustrated. Living a lie for so long is not worth it, I wish to correct it. But, as I suspected, it was not easy and it never happened, as much as I said it would.

Playground's school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello
I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

Distance makes the heart grow fonder, but sometimes, it makes the heart stronger. I do not want to bombard my blog with anger just because I am angry at someone. It's not worth it... I forgave, I forget, but now I'm searching for respect, in which I have not really found.

Or maybe there never was to begin with...

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the light living for you so you can't hide
Don't cry...

(Laughs) It's sick really... but I'm trying to move on. Starting by getting more sleep. I've been online until 3 in the morning and getting up at 9 (my mom took out the curtain in my room and now the sun has turned into my natural alarm clock I never meant to set). I'm blaming my stupidity and lack of sleep for my bad moods and uncertain anger. Getting more anime that gives momentary happiness is not worth losing those dear to you.

Daddy, where are you? Why did you do this to me?

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday...

Cheers! I managed to get your christams presents! I went shopping in Sunway Pyramid today, and not only did I managed to buy all the presents (including my parents), I managed to buy my dress and shoes for the prom. It's a very simple, dark brown dress. My shoes are black (They won't stop me because of black shoes... right??), it kinda covers my ankle so I don't know how do you call it.

Hope you guys are doing well!

God bless.

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Monday, December 13, 2004

Subete kawatte... demo watashi mada ugokatta...

Actually, this has to be one of the weridest holidays I've ever had. I'm fighting with my dad on almost everything that concerns me. From my attitude, to my college... even my computer!

And now Mom's thinking I'm a slut just because I went out with Afham. When I explained to her that I only wanted to go ice-skating and that he brought his brother along, she went on about that I should be focusing on my studies and not boys and that Dad would get angry and probably not let me study at all.

For one thing, it was a point where I felt even more trapped in this house. Because I'm forced to endure my parents for every mistakes that I make. And now life seems useless, after all my parents now are not threathening to not let me go online or getting me grounded, they're threathening to ruin my future.

How fucked up my life seems to be getting.

On the brighter side, Shosh is back! \(^.^)/ I know I'm not exactly talkative now, Shosh, and am making you feel a little out. I'm trying to assess my feelings for there are a lot I need to handle. But still, your presence is most welcome!

I'm interested in the colleges KDU and LimKokWing now. I love KDU because it teaches almost all of the things that interest me and I don't have to choose between any of them. Unlike LimKokWing where if I go there, I have to choose whether I should take Advertising or PR and then choose a subtopic. If possible, I want to try all! But LimKokWing has an added point where they have transport whereas KDU, I need to take 3 buses. Plus, they mentioned Music videos... when I was at KDU they didn't mention it... (but they might have it, I'm not sure). I want to check out the LimKokWing building though... and then make up my mind.

And it was useless checking out the Japanese colleges. They're more into engineering and law rather than communication. When I said "Mass Communication", they pointed at the subjects Social studies and Japanese Literature (???) . As great as it sounds, I doubt it'll get me anywhere... after all, I only want to learn the language!

Hope you guys are having better days.

God bless.

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